I have always been interested in dreams ever since I noticed what they are. Dreams seem to be a reflection of our moment to moment life. Our fears, our desires, our confusions, etc... all show up in our dreams. Dreams are another way to get to know what we are and often show hidden parts of ourselves.
I have had a tremendous amount of flying dreams throughout my life. I recently had an intense dream of this nature and like a journal I would like to write what I noticed. Who knows where it will unfold, I am just following my hearts desire in this moment.
The feeling of flying with the mind in a dream can come easily or with practice depending on the moment in life it is dreamt.
Yet, the feeling of flying in a dream is like the same feeling you get when you press the gas pedal in a car and expect it to go. When flying in a dream, the mind controlling the body is an expectation, it's not even noticed that it cant be done. In other words, I have not had a flying dream where I questioned the nature of flying as impossible. Some dreams it took a lot of effort, practice, and trial & error, but not questioned.
The thing I want to jot down here and share with myself to remember (since it feels important) is that the FEELING to fly with my mind in the dream, is still here while awake. The same feeling is as active now as it was in the dream. How curious that a feeling like this can remain while awake. It feels very much like the gas pedal example. I KNOW this feeling. This feeling has always been here, I just haven't noticed it since in wake reality it never felt important to notice it.
It never felt important because there is this thought when awake that is attached to an expectation that it will not happen. In fact, this thought comes with such an arrogance that it knows what it is and what life is with such conviction, that it says even to ponder the notion of flying with the mind is a waste of time and is not going to lead anywhere.
Yet this is not my awaking experience 100% of the time. More and more I am noticing an experience where I am so 'disorientated' that I FEEL as if anything is possible and anything can happen at any time.
Another interesting fact to note, is that when flying in the dream, I noticed a thought immediately upon flying (with a feeling of unsafety or fear) saying “What will people think of this?”. In other words, there was fear in how people will respond to seeing me fly, not fear in flying itself.
The way my mind predicted my safety and then made it okay to fly was that in the dream I was a vampire and was in a store that only vampires knew how to enter. Before the flying occurred, no thought of being a vampire was represented in the dream. It seems the mind was making things up in the dream in order to renationalized what can and cant happen. Since I was already lifting off, the mind had to make-up a rule as to why it is safe to fly when people might respond with fear to the flying and therefore render me unsafe to fly.
In other words, the quickest my mind could give a reason why it is safe to fly is based on the information I already had about vampires: vampires can fly and it is safe to fly in front of other vampires because they can fly too, they will not react with fear.
The flying seemed automatically there and before I even did it, I had the feeling of what it would be like. In the same way you have the feeling of what a glass cup feels like even before you pick the glass cup up.
Life and dreams seem to be communicating that everything is coded with information of a feeling language. Everything in our experience is made alive through feeling. Before that point, life is completely unscented as anything known. Nothing can be known without feeling it.
It always seems very transparent and flexible to any feeling. As if it's converges life to mimic the feeling you are having and makes that a reality. In other words, our complete experience is totally and fully made real through any feeling in the moment.
For example, I spend a lot of my time alone. I am surrounded by the same four walls, the same objects, the same thoughts, the same environment and overall the same experience of myself and everything around me. Yet all that can be change just by the act of feeling. Through the feeling filter of sadness, these four walls feel hopeless. Through the feeling of contentment, these four walls feel relaxed. Through the feeling of love for life, these four walls feel like a miracle.
The feelings color life and bring it to life. It doesn't matter the feeling, every feeling is the essence that brings life to life. Life comes alive through feeling. It seems without feeling, life is not really here. Without feeling, there is this silence that is dead to any conscious aliveness. A silence without feeling what the silence really is. That silence is full of feeling and flavors of infinite potential and that infinite potential comes alive through feeling.
We have gone so long without feeling that we forgot what it feels like to feel. There is something magical about feelings that can't be explained but I feel it everywhere in our world today. Everything from law of attraction, intuition, following heart, living in the moment, etc... it's all pointing to feeling again.
I had a feeling to write about this feeling of flying. It lead to this important seeing and reminder to myself and feel that blessing of that expression. I didn't intend to write this, I had no idea why the feeling was there, I just followed it.
This feeling of knowing how to fly and the feeling of it is still here. I had this dream about a week ago. As I walk, I can feel the feeling to just lift off the ground. As I lay here on my bed typing this, I can feel the feeling to float. It is there, so strong, so activated. It feels so easy. Sometimes in the mist of the feeling, my mind wonders why it's not seeing my body levitate.
Where it goes from here is not for me to decide, it may fade the next moment. It may have lived its purpose, or it may open into something else. Who is to say, I don't.
Only will continue to follow the feeling.
