In the story of experience (thoughts about something), there is no truth in anything, no truth 'in and of itself'. Truth never stands alone. In other words, whatever one chooses to believe is what they will see in reality. If you believe something then that believe will provide evidence of it being true. That's all it takes, which is why so many people believe is so many infinite things.
Whenever I stopped believing in something, there was no evidence of it being true anymore and once I start believing something, there are many evidences of it being true. Truth in my experience is created. Nothing more or less then that.
Given this experience, everyone has the opportunity to only choose to believe in things that they desire to see as true and real. Free will can be seen as a choice to choose to experience what is believed and in this way selves have complete control over their reality and what they experience (I have a different conclusion, which I will express later in this article that I call the 'spiritual loop').
The Story of Nicholas Powiull
I can give you examples of my own experience and how I came to the conclusion that belief creates reality and therefore defines reality as being true. Perhaps it will set a foundation and in the conclusion of this article, I will express a way out of the trap and maybe give you different idea of how to finally relax in this moment, rather than believing that you are searching for the truth of reality.
Age 7
I grew up into a Pentecostal religion until around the age of seven. At seven years old, I stopped going to church since my mother (who introduced it to me) stopped going. At this point I believed in a God outside myself that rewarded me and punished me based on how good I was being (or course there are many aspects in the Pentecostal belief, but I am only going to focus on one part of each belief system I adopted through the years). Much like a parent figure and the experience I had from my parent (my mother was the only one raising my sisters and I). Everything I did or didn't do, I saw myself being punished or rewarded by the things that came into my life. I believed these things coming into my life were acts of God to show me how good or bad I was being. I believed this to be the only truth and if I can get this right then my life would be perfect.
Age 13
By age thirteen, I found myself being quite fond of chat-rooms and connecting with all kinds of people across the world through the medium of the internet. Through this connection of people I was introduced to a psychic named Sylvia Browne. Her teachings seemed to resonate with me more then believing in a God that rewards and punishes me. I slowly began to believe that God was something within us all and this God had no reason to punish its own creations.
Although the beliefs of the Pentecostal church was still very dominate in my life (even though I was not going to church, I still attended Pentecostal group meetings that were held in the home of one of my good friends by his mother), I was beginning to form different beliefs around the Pentecostal belief concepts through the belief concepts of Sylvia Browne's books.
Now I experienced God as something inside of me that doesn't punish me, but provides lessons. I no longer experienced God punishing me, I believed life to be a school and this school became a little more fun in my experience. It's more fun to think I can choose to learn the lessons or not at my own pace, rather then being forced to reap bad experiences due to my bad actions. I slowly began to drop the belief concepts of the Pentecostal church and started merging into Sylivia Browne's belief concepts. I then believed this to be what I was finally looking for and if I could only learn all my lessons, then my life would be somehow perfect in every-way. My experiences then showed the lessons of life that I had to learn.
At around same exact time that I was picking up Sylvia Browne's books, I was also reading channeled books like Teachings from the Pleiadians by Barbara Marciniak. These books still resonated with me, but I was hooked onto the belief concepts of Sylvia Browne. I ignored everything in the Pleadian's belief concepts that didn't fit into Sylvia Browne's belief concepts.
As time went on, slowly I started to drop the belief concepts of Sylvia Browne and merged into taking-in more of the Pleiadian's belief concepts. Now I believed God to be something within myself and all others, but there are no lessons to learn because we all know everything (just like God), there is only remembering what we forgot while being in this body. Now I believed that if I could just remember everything that I forgot, then my life would somehow be perfect. I started experiencing life as a remembering process.
The channeled books of Barbara Marciniak lead me to start reading many more channeled books. I slowly started merging into believing every New Age belief concept, but the Conversations with God books by Neale Donald Walsch seemed to resonate with me. It seemed to take the understandings of all religions (including Pentecostal religion) and put it into a context that I could understand, but I was still hanging onto the belief concepts of the Pleiadians.
In fact at the time, I thought Neale Donald Walsch was not channeling God, but channeling another higher intelligence that was coming out in the form of God, through the understanding that we are all one (which is what all channel pieces seemed to express). I now believed that we are all Gods and we are here to experience our Godness through form. I believed myself to have the ability to create my own reality as I saw fit. I experienced myself as creating my own reality and I saw others experiencing the creation of their reality, even if they were unaware of doing it (they were creating through their thoughts about things). I thought if I could just keep my thoughts on exactly what I want, then I can create anything I desire and my life would be perfect somehow.
I was stuck in the trap of the "create your own reality" idea for a very long time, especially with things coming out like: The Secret, Abraham Hicks, Ramtha, Steve Pavlina, etc... and they are all right, they have all successfully created the reality they prefer. The law of attraction works, I have seen it work in my own experience.
The Spiritual Loop
That is a very compacted version of my experience, but my point is only to express an alternative route. There is nothing wrong with all the other routes, they are all valid and acceptable, but if you are tired and exhausted of what I call the 'spiritual loop', which means: always searching/seeking a better reality, never being satisfied with this moment, always feeling the need to save people into creating the reality they desire, always defending your position/ideas/identity, always trying to focus your thoughts to make sure you create what you intent, etc... then keep reading.
When You Die
Science has discovered that everything is energy and energy can't die, it can only change form. When you die (leave the physical), you can take nothing of this world with you. You can gather as much as you like and make that the point of life and that is valid. However, realize what is truly real and what is only of this world. The things that you can take with you when you leave this body is what is truly real.
What is that? What can you take with you?
(Don't get lost in this next part of the article because it doesn't really matter since chances are you don't directly experience things this way, however I felt is was important to conclude it as what you can look forward to if you decide to jump off the 'spiritual loop'.)
Love
Consciousness and everything it contains within it is what you take with after death.
Lets start with love. Love can be seen as an emotion reaction to a stimulus response in the body/mind, but love can also be seen as a State of Being that is within consciousness. Love at that level doesn't love because of something outside self, it loves because it is seen that nothing/everything is it and therefore it loves just because it is love itself.
From a emotion reaction to love, love happens because it is seen that there are things outside of the body/mind that it doesn't love. It is then conditioned to love because it only loves based on the outside circumstance.
From the State of Being love, it can't not love because there is nothing it doesn't see as being not love (more expressed on how love sees love in everything here: "Nobody Understands Me, There is NO Hope for Tomorrow, Nobody Knows the Real Me, & I Am All Alone")
Infinite
Consciousness is infinite, this is something that the mind can not grasp because it doesn't think in infinite terms. The mind thinks it is this body form and dispels the formless that allows it to be form. In other words, your form/body, is only able to be a form because of the empty space/nothingness/formlessness that allows it to move freely in this world. If everything was form then everything would be solid and nothing could move. It is the formless that allows the form to be a form and likewise form allows formless to be formless. In other words, if everything was empty space then there would be no forms to experience.
Infinite consciousness is you, you are form and the formless between that make up all forms. In other words, when you die, the consciousness that seems trapped in this body/mind will expand to experience itself in everything/nothing which is the love I was describing above.
One Moment
When you die, you will have no thoughts of past or future, you will see that everything is only one moment and in that one moment everything/nothing is being created. In other words, the form and the formless are both being instantly manifested in only one moment and all the past events and future ideas will be seen as nothing be concepts of the mind. Everything/nothing is infinite consciousness which is only seeing One moment, the only moment of now. Everything right now form/formless is being created in this only moment. This is also something the mind can never grasp because it's job is to think in linear terms. At death you will be completely satisfied with this moment or any moment because it's all One moment.
The Good News
The good news is that you don't have to die (per say) or leave this body to experience what is truly real because what is truly real, is always real and always has been.
So how do you experience this real truth without dieing (leaving the body)?
The Dream
Let us define this reality in a new context. If reality is experienced based on your beliefs to it and everyone experiences reality differently because we all have different beliefs, then really there is no reality. How can there be a reality when the reality changes based on who is perceiving it? To have a reality, it has to be solid with no exceptions to the rule. Yet there is no rules to reality and if there is a rule then it would be: what you believe is what you will experience. What kind of rule is that?
In this case, reality can be perceived as a dream. When you lay down at night and have a dream, you experience that dream as if it's real, until you 'awaken' ;) and everyone has a different experience of dreams, just like reality is experienced differently depending on the person dreaming it.
Taking things in this context, it's easier to explain what I mean by real truth and hopefully it will give you a content to work from, in order to start viewing true reality without leaving this body. You can begin to get out of the trap of the 'spiritual loop' by using this method, but it's only a method.
Adding a Story to the Dream
Your dream (reality) is what it is. In other words, when you dream at night, then you are having a dream and there is nothing in that dream that is not the dream. It's just a dream that you are having, there is nothing to it, it's just a dream.
The dream only becomes complicated and you start to experience suffering, when you decide to add meaning to the dream itself. For example, let's say in your dream, you start feeling disappointed, well disappointment happens in dreams because that is part of the dream world. Disappointment is just happening, however, when you add a story to the disappointment, then the dream becomes more real.
For example, you might say "I am disappointed because of this character in my dream". Now, because you added a story and through this story it gave the dream the ability to be experienced as something real. Now instead of just having a dream, you empowered the dream. Yet not only did you empower the dream but you empowered the character in your dream and disempowered yourself by allowing that dream character to be the position/identity of your disappointment.
All of this dream (reality) is being produced in the manner described above.
How Positions/Identities Are Formed
The only way to put someone else in a position of identifying them as being the source of your experience, is by repressing the position/identity in yourself.
For example, disappointment happens, but when you feel that the disappointment is bad and shouldn't be experienced, then you can't fully be with the disappointment. Disappointment arises then it falls away. It will never fall way if you don't allow yourself to experience it, in fact it will keep showing up as everybody else in your dream.
In other words, when you don't allow disappointment to exist, then you suppress it and now because it's suppressed, it appears as if everybody in your experience is the cause of disappointment. All the dream is showing you, is that the story you added to the dream characters is false, it's about your dream, what are you suppressing? What are you hiding from experiencing?
When the dream is seen through, this becomes a very simple way of living and staying in the moment of now becomes the base of everything because only in the now is when you can catch the stories before they are played out. Even the memories of your past will become nothing but a story in the dream.
I will give two more example using my own experience in hopes that you can embed this method more fully.
Personal Examples from the Nicholas Powiull Story
When I was holding onto the idea that everything is oneness, I suppressed the idea of separation and anybody who was talking in separation terms, was seen as a person who needs to view the dream as I saw it.
Oneness become my identity and anybody who was not talking about oneness: was lost, needed to be reminded, was an enemy of oneness, was misinformed, etc... I felt personality responsible to make them see how I was seeing it and anybody who didn't see it was labeled.
I slowly realized that both ideas are correct and in fact it doesn't matter what another is dreaming because it's still One dream.
Defending Ideas
This is actually the cause of all wars, all suffering, all killings, all torturing, and all the mistreatment of anybody else (individually and universally). The reason why planes get cashed into buildings, the reason why religions fight among each other, the reason for race against race, gender against gender, politics against politics, religion against science, science against religion, and religion against religion.
All of it is because the idea of something is taken on a position that is identified with and through that identification, one must defend the idea.
Ideas are fine, there is nothing wrong with ideas, ideas are harmless, it's when one feels that they must defend that idea because they took a position to it and they accepted it as an identity and now they have to defend it from others.
Example Two
Many people that read this site have considered me a teacher, they label me a teacher and they are happy to do that because they liked what I had to say, but I never took it as me being a teacher. I saw it as a sharing or invitation to see with me. I always saw both a teacher and student in everybody and we are all here to remind each other of what we have forgotten. Since we all remember certain things, then everyone is a gift in reminding differently.
I got to the point where I saw teaching as being a bad thing and I no longer wanted to see myself as a teacher, so I suppressed the idea of being a teacher and only tried to be the student and because I suppressed the idea of being a teacher, I saw people who appeared to be teachers to me and I labeled them: "that person is wrong because they are taking on the teacher energy and that person over there I didn't like because they will not be a student like me... etc"
It's like the very thing I was trying not to be, I saw it everywhere else in people except me because I was suppressing it. When both ideas of teacher and student are allowed then they cancel each other out and both ideas become irrelevant. The ideas themselves become nothing but ideas.
Allowing Anything in your Dream
What does it matter that someone else doesn't agree with your dream? When it's seen as a dream then anything is allowed in the dream because it's just a dream. You allow yourself to stay focused in the moment of the dream and as long as the dream is not causing conflict in your experience (by not adding stories to the dream), then who cares what others dream? Then the dream becomes playful, it becomes silly, and out of your playfulness/silliness you might write an article like this one to add more playfulness/silliness to your dream and in a way all the other charACTERs might find playfulness/silliness to their dream, but you never get stuck on the idea and identify with a story that says their dream matters.
Just focus on your dream and through the playfulness/silliness of your dream perhaps all the other dreams will be dreaming the same dream, but who cares if they don't? As long as your dream is seen as a dream then every other dream is perfectly okay, your not bothered by it and that is freedom/bliss/love.
When I am dreaming and I realize it's a dream, I care not what is experienced in the dream because it's just a dream and yes you may want to control the dream through lucid dreaming and that is valid but either way it's still just a dream so what does it matter if we experience how the dream naturally occurs or how we create it to occur, it's still the same: a dream.
Dream Characters That Awoken to the Dream
You may find in your dream, dream characters with names like: Mahatma Gandhi, Ramana Masharshi, Krishnamurti, Eckhart Tolle, Jesus Christ, Gautama Buddha, Mother Teresa, etc... and see that all those dream characters have something in common: other dream characters are drawn to them, despite: their religions, how they live their life, their moral stands, their reality.
I would suggest the reason is because they saw this as a dream and didn't/don't bother themselves with other characters dreams. Yet even as they don't/didn't care about others and their dream, they still are seen as the most unconditional loving characters because their consciousness is/was set to the infinite consciousness described about. Their consciousness was not one of division, but one of unity because they saw it as their dream. They just did what they did because of the playfulness/silliness of their dream. They were/are not trying to be leaders, worshiped, followed, etc... they were/are only being in the moment of the their dream and being one with their own dream. They were/are not against anything in their dream.
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