3 Easy Steps to Freeing Yourself of Depression: by Nicholas Powiull

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I often heard the label of manic (or chronic) depressant in reference to me. Of course I never considered that at the time because who wants to admit such a thing? I want to share with you a way to move past it and it is with something I have much experience. I have been there and if you are there then I exercise extreme compassion for your situation. In my experience of life, it is perhaps the worse experience. There are infinite situations that can cause one to become depressed and they are all valid. You have every right to feel depressed given your situation. I do not know what your situation is individually, but if you feel depression then I give your reason(s) credit with compassion.

My desire is to show you one way to find a route away from depression. Nobody, and I mean not anybody on the face of this Earth deserves to experience depression. Everyone is worthy in my eyes to have a life of joy and you may think there are certain situations or reasons to why you can not, yet those things are not the source of the depression. To understand the source you must be willing to in-vision and accept that you deserve a joyous life. Do you want to change? Are you willing to humor me? I know you do because you are reading this and depressed people who are not willing, do not bother with websites of this nature so consider yourself in the first step to changing your life into a joyous one. To relate to the source of the depression, we must understand what we define depression as being.

What Is Depression?
Depression is define in the dictionary as: “a psychoneurotic or psychotic disorder marked especially by sadness, inactivity, difficulty in thinking and concentration, a significant increase or decrease in appetite and time spent sleeping, feelings of dejection and hopelessness, and sometimes suicidal tendencies also reduction in activity, amount, quality, or force and a lowering of vitality or functional activity.”

Now that you know the dictionary definition of it, let me define what depression really is through every person who experiences depression. Depression is the ability to know what you want and failing to experience it, unable to think you are worthy enough, or unable to rise above a past situation. Those are the only reasons anybody is ever depressed (we will get to the source later). No matter the situation(s) of a depressed individual, everything can be narrowed down to those reasons. You might define depression a disorder, disease, chemical imbalance, or you might say that you are a manic (or chronic) depressant and therefore you have no choice but to deal with it, but that is not true at all. Through my experience, saying those things only gave me an excuse or reason to NOT change. After all, this is how I defined myself and I got comfortable with it. It gave me absolute certainty in ever situation about myself. I accepted it as part of who I was and I told myself I had to deal with, so of course I was going to resist to change it because I would have to step outside my comfort zone! Can you relate?

A Need Not a Want
Depression is the ability to know what you want and failing to experience it, unable to think you are worthy enough, or unable to rise above a past situation, but these things are not a want, they are a need. That is why the feeling of depression is so strong, because it becomes a NEED not want. In fact, sometimes it is such a need that people will go to extremes of having suicidal tendencies and acting on it. If you are a ‘depressed’ individual as I was and have been dealing with it for long periods of time, then it is likely you have tried to take your own life. I have been there, you can read the about page for more information.

Exception to the Rule
There is only one exception to the rule. That is if you truly have everything you could ever want to experience in life, you do think yourself worthy, no past situation haunts you, you honestly have a life people dream about, and you are depressed. In this situation, you need some excitement in your life, things are too certain for you. You need to change something in your life to experience a rush, a change in state, something extremely exciting. There are positive ways and negative ways of doing this and it would be much easier to go for the negative especially the state of mind already influence by depression are currently in, so as a result you see celebrates and multi-million/ billionaires resort to drugs because they have no excitement (needed excitement is a subconscious state) and are depressed about it. I suggest you do something that helps people in an exciting way, change the world as you see fit through the help you offer others. Helping people is the most positive and exciting way to move away from too much certainty. ‘Successful people’ who help others never have this setback.

Depression can also be broken down to having a habit (I wrote an article here on how to break bad habits) of thinking negative, I wrote an article here about how to stay positive in negative situations and to help appreciate why you are worthy. Always thinking negative is result of focus. If your focus is on what you do not want and/or the experience of a negative result you are getting, then your focus will become your experience. As I explained in an article called “the biggest problem in the world”, the mind tends to focus on the problem and not the pleasant experiences. I mentioned in the article universal knowledge that even having the infinite knowledge within, focus is still a factor since it is always there, but only reveals itself when an opportunity shows up. In other words, to access it you need a reason for the answer to come to you. Just like, you have no use for your math skills unless a math problem shows up. This makes things easier since life seems to move by moments, therefore the moment you realize your thinking negative then start thinking about the good things in your life. Have gratitude for the positives in your life right now since gratitude is life changing. Alternatively, you could focus on an event or experience in your past that made you feel good, a happy experience that makes you joyous to remember. If you continuously think about happy experiences, your current experience will follow, since after focus follows experience.

If your desire to become very skilled at something in life you must make it your focus to see it grow. For example, if sharpening your skills at art is your goal then you must see, hear, smell, taste, and breathe art. Watch documentaries about art, listen to audio covering art, research art, take art classes, and focus on anything art related. It is obvious that if done consistently then art will become a very powerful skill in your life and eventually you will express yourself through your art and create more art in this world! This is true for anything you focus on in life. If your goal is to stop the experience of depression, then you must focus on the experience of happiness.

The Question
In my experience, there were several past situations making me feel not worthy enough of happiness. I had a habit of negative thinking and life seemed not give the results I needed. I discovered the reasoning through a series of events that helped shaped my life and seeing that there is more to life then I currently know. I just needed to experience that in order to find out, but I did not allow myself the experience. I needed to live my passion and as soon as I chose to do that, my life has never been the same since, if I would have known to ask myself the question, “What do I need to be experiencing that I am not?” then I would have known what to do about the depression.

Breaking down the Cure for Depression
1. Understand depression for what it really is. (Depression is the ability to know what you want and failing to experience it, unable to think you are worthy enough, and/or unable to rise about a past situation.)

2. Read the linked articles to be aware of your worthiness, how to break bad habits, and how to stay positive.

3. Put into practice what you focus on, ask the question “What do I need to be experiencing that I am not experiencing?” then take action to that direction.

Do not get me wrong please because I am not saying that depression is just fulfilling a major need. It is also about being open to new perspectives. It is a real problem just like diabetes and has to be treated or it could lead to death. In fact, I would not be alive today if it was not for several weird things happening in my life continuously after every time of trying to take my life because of it.

I can only go by my experience in my own life. If anybody would have told me what I wrote here about depression (while I was depressed) I would have become very angry with that person. I would question if that person were even depressed at all, yet alone manic depression because the answer does not seem to fitting or right.

I refused medication for my depression every time because I have seen what medication does to people on anti-depressants. It makes them numb and causes a fake happiness with no feeling. I would rather feel my pain then become numb to any feeling at all. I rather die with feeling, then to live and become numb to everything. I was in a very bad state and being stubborn does not help matters.

Where My Depression Lead Me
I went to extreme over-dramatic depths of trying to take my own life, to my surprise each time I tried to commit suicide, my body survived. It was amazing by how and why things did not work out in the way I felt they should have.

One suicide attempt I tried was trying to shoot myelf with one of my step-dad guns. I loaded it, put it to my head, and pulled the trigger. I was shocked that the gun did not fire. I took it apart and cleaned it, checked that the console was even with the chamber of the bullets, made sure to turn the safety off and tried again. Nothing. I used a different gun, nothing.

I was raged! That was my fifth attempt of trying to use different methods, I was sure the use of the gun would work, and it did not. I had no way out! I was so angry at life, at the guns, at myself for not being able to do anything right not even take my own life! Why did it not work? I always felt I was here for a purpose, but could never fulfill it. "Perhaps I am here for a purpose and I can fulfill it.", I questioned. I felt the purpose was to find a way to experience life in a way that deep down everybody wants life to be, in peace and happiness constantly through any experience, not only for me but also for everybody. I cannot live with depression and I refuse any treatment that the medical field has to offer and forever reason I cannot die. So logically, I thought if I cannot die, I have a disorder that causes me to want to die, and because I refuse treatment then there must be another way.

Chemical Imbalance
Therefore, I questioned why I was depressed. It was a chemical imbalance in my brain, they said. Yet, I refused to belief that because something beyond my understanding was forcing me to live and why would I be forced to live with this depression without a cure, when I am just going to end up trying to kill myself again some other time since I refuse to take medication and nothing was going to change that!

Live Life to the Fullest
Over time through a series of events, I decided if I could not die, then I am going to do everything I desired to do in life. Not fearing the results because I felt like if something beyond my control was controlling me to live, then I might as well make the very best life possible for myself. as a result, I did and I had no idea life could be this way. I feel more then happy, I feel at peace with myself and with no more negative thoughts of any kind. So if depression is a chemical imbalance in the brain, then why this result? What caused me to change without medication?

For a long time I was interested in hypnotherapy, using the mind to cure the body. Through my research, I discovered that they were doing tests on people with diabetes and telling the people under hypnosis that they have a cure to rid of diabetes forever and have them take this sugar-pill. To their surprise, the diabetes completely disappeared while hypnotized.

Another thing I discovered in my life in terms of the medical field is that there was a case with a person how had multi-personalities. This person would come in for regular check ups, but one time she came in and another personality came out, they dealt with her as if she was the same person because she was in the same body. Yet after testing the blood, they found no signs of diabetes while she was this other personality.

Conclusion
Therefore, my conclusion in my experience is that depression is a chemical imbalance in the brain, only if you define it that way. Yet even if you do define it that way, for some reason you can change that imbalance, if you change the way the brain operates. For me I changed the way it operated by doing whatever it took to fulfill my desires and the biggest desire was to fulfill my life purpose, which is what I am doing now with these articles. I have fulfilled more desires then that, but after I started this desire (of writing articles to help people) that is when I saw changes in my life, perspective, and attitude.

What harm does it cause by trying it? I know it works because I experience the changes everyday. You will never know if it works for you or not, unless you seriously give it a shot.

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